实在是对不起
竟然有大半年未曾来过这里
甚至忘了密码。。

该写些什么。。
接着念旧吧。。我仅剩这个地方被允许做这样的事情了。。
虽然有了女朋友 应该说虽然有了一个很好的女朋友。。
该放下的终究没有放下。。
我究竟是该庆幸你来澳洲的时候我在国内
还是应该再次扼腕？
时常哼着好久不见
以为见面了真的可以寒暄几句
事实上呢。。大概又会脆弱的像个女人吧。。好像一直都是。。
或许。。这辈子你我之中有人结了婚或者有了孩子。。
见了面才会把戏演得逼真一些吧。。
王菲出了新专辑
你大概早已不爱她了吧

Once upon a time, there was Lydia and Penny.
Things were very cold that winter.
All the snowflake was melting in the roof.
Everything was white. One night the bed caught fire.
She was gorgeous and a very good actress.
We lived on sunlight and hotel room.
It was the whole doy of extravagant delight.
Penny the daredevil. Lydia went missing.
You came into my life really fast and I liked it.
I want to try it your way next time.
We squelched in the mud of our joy.
You were wet-thighed with surrender.
With I inside you comes the hatch of death.

You told me that i cant give you the life you want.
And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again.
You want me to leave and i just gone.
Without any words except a broken heart.
but the body he died in the morning .
Please remember me in my opaqueness.
And sometimes I hate you...I didn't mean that
I thought that love would last for ever, I was wrong.
You were my Nourth, my South, my East and West.
My working week and my Sunday rest.
My moon, my midnight, my talk, my song.

And...you still be.

我知道再不写点什么就有些对不起这里了
事实上已经很对不起了...

毕竟我不是她
人变了之后荒废了许多东西...
同是天平座...难道只因我们性别不同吗?

我总是在想...给我们五年或者更多的时间
你会变回来吗?
再或者...我会变吗?
能不能告诉我怎么变...
我让自己狠着心过日子...
屁用都没有

这一年九个月零三周多四天的日子里我做了些什么...
顾影自怜的同时伤害了多少人?
再坦白一些...
这二十四年多我伤害了多少人...